life is a beautiful flower of a star. to focus on it is to turn it away from you. hi, everyone on my neocities website. i am pretty high right now, and its the most unusual circumstance. it feels like every thought i have ever had is just all washing over me at once. I cant tell whether or not to run away from that feeling. i wonder if my self-seeing self is my worst enemy, or my best friend. Perhaps he is the fear of the true me, or rather, the fear of the non-existence of a me beyond this me. it is indescribable, or all good and all bad at once. it is beauty, if i know it.

it is as like my mind is free, with no vehicle to cross the vast landscapes and breadth of her freedom. 'her'? ohho ho ho. dont worry. gender is nonsense.

i wonder a great deal about how this post will be recieved, or perhaps it is merely the knowlege of my future self in relation to this post. dont worry! i am haveing fun! that misspelling, ho ho, i left it there as a witness. this is whimsy! a circus in my mind!

me head phone bateris are getting low now. visions of an old man cartoon dancisn on a tightrope are in my mind. free. art can be as little as a period on the page. hehehehe, orb. every frame after the current is a little bit of a liar. in claims acces to the past that it lacks. iwish to becomd uncategorizeable, and yet at the same time, i fear that point. i am free. the true beauty of every little stone on the ground is a magnificance, and i thank the me that was walking on that path so long back then. i am glad that artificial intelligence can not produce any writing of this scale of madness. or is my intelligence itself artificial? maybe oh so long ago, (i forgot what sentence i was writing here)

i would like to thank everybody ever in my life and in my mind . thank you god and jesus for letting me experinece them.

this is one hundred percent like that one calving and hobbes comic strip about cubism. i fear that whatever i may do next i do with my full enthusiasm.

i would like t o treate every moment in my life with mercy.

i would like to tell the world about how much love i have for gynandromorph's new webcomic classic drop out. they are just little guys tryna get along in life.

that seams like a pretty good deal and good deals are important in this econoomy

youlllll never know whats in my mind when i write these posts!!! thgts why IIIIIIm strong and YOUUUUUUUUre weak.

this is fun. knothing follows and its beautifle. i be playing with life experiencese in my mind like its a god damned bath tub.

I HOPE EVEYBODY IN MY LIFE KNOWS I LOVE THEM AND THEYRE BEAUTIFUL!

I LOVE EVERY THING I EVER LEARNED IN MY WRITING CLASS

poetry is gods forgiveness

this website is about how badly i want to tell the truth about myself.

this is one hundred percent like that one calving and hobbes comic strip about cubism.

maybe im broken maybe im fixed. im free but i gotta wash my hands.

you gotta find god with the self cuz thats really the only tool youve got.

hey birthday im pretty high rn and i want to tell you about how i really like your posts. you seem really free and im sorry if youre ever sad.

maybe it all that since i couldnt show kindness to myself i couldnt truly show it to others. all really do be one.

you have the responsibility to be kind to yourself from here on out. that goes for you too reader!! i know its not nobody that reads my posts. i accept that. i am kind to that.

im free as a leaf floating away. im proud of myself for being able to have fun while high, and have fun for the first time in a while. fun is beautiful and everyone should be kind to each other.

big sins are a lot worse than little sins. zizek freedom is funny.

caleb i hope you can find the beautiful little rock patterns in your life. expel all fear and sadness but keep them dear as memories.

this is the best time in the world.

caleb youore not the only one with access to god and thats exciting!

youre going to be okay after this moment passes.

takin the tunes to go! you dont have to be scared about whether youre wearing pants or not, you are.

there you go again, not trusting yourself! being afraid of yourself! dont do that! you're okay! https://i.pinimg.com/originals/33/d8/e7/33d8e7f3618c857a62755ef02aefad13.png

i actually be making most of the choices in my life because im afraid of being funny and silly so i shouldnt do thhat.

the smartest thing ever actually is not being afraid of yourself.

gear 5 luffy is actually about not being afraid of yourself.

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